Awakened

I thought it was love that made me keep going Those days I'd cry myself to sleep Whispering to myself its ok Its was ok that you forced me to say I love you And yet you never said it back It was ok when other girls would come flirt with you Because it was my bed you warmed at night It was ok to plan a future Because of love, It would Always be ok That time I wanted to say no and you forced me to say yes It was ok You backed me into a corner, I love you You searched my messages, He's just worried Its ok that you left Because I dont think I would have let you go Ensnared in the lure you created, But I put together Now he asks if its ok when he touches me I tell him its ok when he apologises a million times I tell him I'm ok when he asks how I'm feeling But even better he knows its a lie He says its ok to have those memories That he'll make some better ones He says its ok to cry but keep my chin up He kisses my scars and says he understands my pain The pain I felt when I was finally free and going nuts He says its ok when I flinch and hugs me close I know now its ok to be upset, and not be the first one to apologise I know now that those honeyed words tasted delicious because of the poison The poison that corrupted my mind and told me it was ok Ok to accept the abuse All because of love Love taught me that I'm beautiful Love taught me I'm smart Love told me I have a voice Love told me to be free Love tells me that its not selfish to say no to sex Love tells me I'm not obligatsd to give anything Love tells me to be careful But most of all its ok because I love me