baby anymore

when i was 7 years old i realized i wasnt a baby anymore,

hard times and molestation told me i wasnt a baby anymore,

when i ran away from home,

my mom knew i wasnt a baby anymore,

smoking meth, 

family knew i wasnt a baby anymore

went to juvenile hall for 2 years,

the system treated me like one but knew,

i was not a baby anymore,

got out and started up on a black mission,

heroin knew i wasnt a baby anymore,

trials and tribulations,

everyone wanted to help,

but im a big girl,

im not a baby anymore....

finally,

i sat down,

and laid in my cradle, 

21 years old, 

lifes a difficult journey...

why cant i be a baby anymore?