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Silent tears stain my pillow
i try to recall the way the thought of your kiss gave me an afterglow
as i sit here looking out past my window at the rain 
the memories only bring me more pain.
i trusted you and got my heart broken in two 
i had lost myself in you 
i turned you presence into my heartbeat
it felt like you had laid my heart in the middle of a new york street
i turned your voice into my air
but the pressure i had put on you hardly seems fair
i turned your thoughts into my confidence 
Your embrace is what i craved but heart break is what i got
it baffles me that i still have not forgot
i remember the way we used to be.
i recall how i was more than the span of my hips
i liked how you saw past the curve of my breast 
i loved that to you i was more than the arch in my back and treasure between my thighs.
I fell for the way your embrace encourages my intelligence.
you had me when you didnt judge me for my stories
when you left you took my heartbeat
when we stopped talking i had no air
when i no longer knew your thoughts i lost my confidence
all of a sudden, i no longer knew why you would want to be with me
maybe it was the desire to put the arch in my back or to have the treasure between my thighs
maybe all you saw was the span of my hips and the curve in my breast 
maybe you were just everyone else i think myself but below the thick surface of my hurt. 
i know that i was special to you i know that you saw past my body straight to my soul. 
you still have my heart beating in your chest. Come let your heart reside in mine. Just be careful please.
When ever i close my eyes i see you with her and it tears me apart because i wish that was me. 
I tore down my mile high walls to get to you 
i cant lie i miss you
come back to me love, 
come take back your place with in my arms. 
come back to me
Back to the place where we both belong
i caught myself wishing on stars to be with you.
Maybe i should stop getting my hopes up. because you have moved on and maybe you dont want to go back.
It scares me that i'm still here waiting not moving forward not going back just waiting for you. even though i know you've moved on 
How long has it been. i dont know the days stopped mattering a long time ago it seems like im living in one painful never ending day where the sun sets and rises on the hour. 
i think to myself how long will i continue to wait . but i already know the answer. 
It seems i will never get you back just like i will never get the time i spent waiting on you back. but it was worth it. 
Maybe it is time for me to follow your lead and stop looking back