Back to You

I won’t lie, I enjoyed that we spent together- every second of it. But I know that we aren’t meant to be. You’ve hurt me so much in the short time we were together. Everyone told me to leave you but I wouldn’t listen… I wish I did, but at the same time I was too blinded by what I thought was love. Love doesn’t hurt people physically. It took people building walls of steel around me before I could finally see that the prison they put me in was better than the prison you kept me in. Underneath a million restrictions, the only one I’m glad about is the one where I was forced to be kept from you. Yet at the same time I yearn for you every second, but at the same time, I’m not sure if I’m willing to risk it all for you. I still feel like I need you, but everyone else says that I need space. Black and white blend together into an ugly shade of gray that others call beautiful. I was so happy with you, but I learned that I could also be happy without you… It’s just a bit harder to do. But when I was with you, you took me away from the rest of the world and it was magical. But you were trying to hide me while others were trying to find me and keep me away from you. I guess they won… for now at least. But it will take more than a few walls to keep me from running back to you.