bad bad thoughts

why is it I look at a girl I'm all for feminism but I realize shes hot and suddenly I imagine her pants down I hate when men objectify women but when I do it its ok since I'm one of them? no someone get this lesbian away how could I resist their hair is so soft I wanna pull it their skin so smooth I wanna touch it their lips so moist I wanna lick them their necks and chests, so sensitive I wanna bite them they look so pretty especially in lace so why why why how come I can't be normal how come I don't want a legit romance I want a girl that'll always be there so we can satisfy the others needs i can taste her see parts nobody else can so why am I so gross why do I find cuddling gross but full rubbing nice? why do I not want a little kiss, I wanna bite her lips and lick up the blood? see I have no interest in heaven anyways or anything soul related soulmates are bs so is the idea that all my friends are in hell which would be pretty sick so let me be what even will I do wait until the hot girl I wished for comes along I don't know if this is healthy oh well oh well oh well