balls deep

Balls deep
By nashon kemp
I'm balls deep in love...
Trying to swim but I can't get out...
Know its all wrong but them tell me what's right...
In the end will it truly be worth the fight...
Its a struggle for breath a struggle to survive...
Bit In the end once I do so I start to realize I was never truly alive...
So be it then so be it not...
Try in this game as much as you like but you still win not...
Its alot to say there's alot to do...
But then truly tell me should it be to you...
The one I want not the one I need...
Like Neo the matrix is not into me...
Yet it surrounds me...
Trying to get to the end yet never left from my beginning...
On a path to destruction...
To live is to truly want nothing...
But to die...
Well neither is  a true prize...
You seen me on the outter
if only you can see me for what I hold inside...
Then and only then would you be able to realize...
That in retrospect neither of us is a prize...