Bastard Bus Boy
i feared you
being a small fragile creature with doe eyes
ready to tuck my tail and hide
and you knew it
you let me know how off i-
how below all those around me i-
small and insignificant i-
Irrelevant
how squandered my potential-
was
i hated you
mocking me when i had no ground to gain
no whit to quip back
i saw the self-confident phrases written
in the seatbacks of the bus
I’m better than that
I’m trying my best
I’m doing all i can
i reached for them, tried to rip them out of the leather
throw them at you
but i couldn't because
none of them were true
i made them true
laughed in your face said
Look at me now,
So much better
i am
grown above the level you thought of me
shattered the glass ceiling placed above my head
good you said
keep going
i'll always be here to save you from falling
victim to the endless doe eyes of
weak and fragile
passiveness