the battle within

deephate

lossand anguish

it all mixesinto onelargemess

somewords dont eventouch thisfeeling

myeyes areallout of tears and hanghalfclosed

or is it halfopen to you whofeel

myheart—does itevenbeat

hard totell

youcant know

whati befeeling

howcan you foolsunderstand

youwant tohelp then LEAVEMEALONE

theresnothing youcando

tosave mefromthis

pit

of

des-

pair

ilike theblack

ofthis smallroom

iusedto likepink

iwanted

tobe

apretty princess

andlive inacastle witha

kingso kind

butdreams dont

cometrue

learnthisnow

youfools

dreams

are

like

pa-

per

burningin

theFLAMES

OFHELL

just

like

me

.

.

.

.

do

not

give up

myChild

I still loveyou

myChild

youvegone farther

than

rockbottom

butlisten

to

Me

listen

listenlisten

toMe

.

.

.

.

I

THOUGHT

I GOTRIDOF

YOU

HOWDARE YOU

COMEINTO

THIS

SOULOFMINE

LEAVEHER

ALONE

you are

so

alone

myfriend

cantyousee

noonecares about

you

theylie

when theysay

dothose fools

listentomee

tome

listen

to

me

.

.

.

.

thischaos

inside

icannotcontrol

itatall

iwantto

SCREAMAND

SHOUTbut

icant

i wantto

crybut icant

letgo

of

me

setme

FREE

p

l

e

a

s

e

.

.

.

.

up

uplook

upMy

Child

iamnot faraway

letyourheart

beat

beat

beat

again

takemy hand

myChild

iwill

neverleave

younor forsake

you myChild

istill

love

you

.

.

.

.

is

that

alight

itsbeenso

dark for solong

imnot evensure what

lightlooks like

do i dareto hope

dare tolook

up

up

up

.

.

.

.

YOU

FOOL

thereis nolight

light doesnot exist

ithought youwould have

LEARNEDTHIS BY NOW

theonly waytogo is

down

down

down

.

.

.

.

here

iam

myChild

here i am

take my

hand

please dontlook

down

dontlook

down

i

still

loveyou

myChild

ido

i

do

.

.

.

.

i

cant

lookdown

doi darelook up

amieven worthit

thelight

is

faint

butican

see

it

clear

as day

.

.

.

.

NO

YOUFOOL

you arenot worthy

you cannot hope

donteven try

hope

is

frail

youcant

trust

hope

.

.

.

.

i

surprise

myself

istill

look up

ithink maybe

there is a littlehope

maybethere

is a little

hope

.

.

.

.

yes

myChild

there is hope

still look up and see

the light gets

bigger

warmer

see me here

I still love

you

myChild

I still love you

.

.

.

.

NO YOU FOOL

no you fool

no

you

fool

.

.

.

.

the

light

is warm

the light is

bright

i

like

the light

i like

the

light

.

.

.

.

no

dont leaveme

here alone

listen to me

one last

time

.

.

.

.

LEAVE

MYCHILD ALONE

myChild

you are

safe

here in

the

light

you are safe

here in the light

i still love you.

This poem is about: 
Me
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