A BATTLE WITHIN

Confused and alone where did i go wrong. People see me with my head up and they think im strong. They see a smile on my face and think that i am good. I try to explain my self but im always misunderstood. Rejected and neglected just toss to the curb. My mind is slowly slipping about to lose my nerve. Darkness has fallen i can no longer see. God Almighty what is happening to me. Im Lost in a maze i dont know which path to choose. I want to come out a winner but in reality i lose. I am weak and im tired can no longer go on. Why am i here lord i question do i even belong. Im falling i can feel it lord im on my knee. I feel as these demons are taking over me. The struggle is real and the fear its alive. At times i sit and think wow how did i survive. The world is cruel, full of hatred and disgust. Staying to my self i dont know who to trust. I dont know whats real anymore or whats even fake. I start to second question my self am i sleeping or awake. My reality is all distorted i feel all alone. I dont know what to do i dont know where to go. Father why have you forsaking me why cant i go home. These thought that i have are eating me up inside. Is this all real am i really alive. Im slowly slippen can anyone hear me. Is any of this real or is it all a dream. Im fighting these demons i can hear them call out my name.. They say you know we are here there is no need to be ashame. They say they are trying to help me help me to maintain. But i know the truth they just driving me insane. How can something so evil try to help me do something good. Is what i think is the opposite am i misunderstood. I have heaven and hell fighting over my soul.. I no longer feel warmth it just starting to get very cold. What is going on with me whats happening what do i choose. Are my eyes even open are They closed please help me lord for im so very confused. God almighty can you hear can you see me do you hear my plea.. Please lord i beg of you help me fight these demons trying to take over me..