Battlegrounds

There is so much left to conquer

That I just haven't figured out

Like There are holes in my armor 

in the shape of my self-doubt

And I have never been so vulnerable,

 never quite felt so unclean

just a clueless child 

wandering out into the battle scene,

I know I've never been bulletproof 

But only now can I not handle it,

Been shot at least a hundred times before,

But I must've forgotten how the pain sits

This is much worse than it was before

How silly could I be,

to walk straight through a war zone and wear my heart on my sleeve?

I never avoided the fires,

I always went straight through them,

But now looking at this exit wound,

I shouldn't have been so foolish

My body's bleeding out now, 

My visions foggy, I can't see,

So take this as a lesson my friend, 

 Learn from me,

Fill those patches in your armor,

Avoid every bullet you can,

You can survive many bullets but it takes just one to kill a man