The Battles I'm Losing

I'm surrounded by people but drowning in solitude.

I'm wanting to talk but nobody's willing to listen.

I'm fighting the battles that I will never win.

I'm upset at the little things. 

I push away everyone that gets close.

I'm fighting the battles that I will never win.

I say no to hanging with friends just because.

I wait for the moment to get home and lock myself in my room.

I'm fighting the battles that I will never win.

I'm tired of nothing, yet tired of everything.

I want it to be easy because everything is so difficult.

I'm fighting the battles that I will never win.

I yell at people who did nothing wrong.

I get upset over the stupidest things.

I'm fighting the battles that I will never win.

I cry too often.

I'm permanently upset.

Why am I fighting the battles that I will never win?

But then I step back and look at life as a whole,

because that's only a half and two halves make up one soul.

I say to myself the dark doesn't last forever,

I'm bound to find light because life's an endeavor.

I can see through my tears a life that's happy,

a life that I'm craving and wanting so badly.

When I step back further I see I'm happier than I've been,

and now I'm fighting my battles but I'm seeming to win.