To Be Brave

If I  could change

Just one part of what it is that makes me whole

I would stop being scared of what is not

what has yet to come and what has already happened

I would have opened my mouth to speak the words

that caught in my throat when insecurity claimed my tongue.

 I would have put myself out there without the fear

holding me down like an oncoming wave slowly coaxing a ship to its depths.

I would switch the absurd and

Childish dreams cast away with the dismay fear brought

To dream again as a child with no knowledge of fear

is to live in content. 

My heart has learned the lessons

of a never-ending sensation of fear

So, would I really change the ideology put behind my words?

' What if I changed ' is a question here I can not tell you the answer to

If I could change one thing about myself 

I would stop trying to put in words of something I can't change

I would love myself as I am and hating myself for what I am not. 

For I am whole.