To Be HEARD!

I try to take in the positive

At times I find myself questioning

Whether this is my calling

Is this what I'm meant to do? 

Is this my inner passion?

I can accomplish beyond my wildest dreams

And give back to those who saw something

That I never saw in me

But will that be enough?

I go down this road of chemistry

Wondering if it will guide me

To all the things that are more promising

To travel the world, and see things outside my reach

Would be a blessing after all the stressing I've done

So that nothing can jeopardize the opportunities to come

But will that be enough?

Who am I meant to be?

I look at myself as a provider 

Self driven and working to inspire

I’m willing to absorb information 

Just to create any type of conversation

Whether it is “dumb downed” or “proper”

In the end I shall prosper

And get rid of all the others

Who have little positivity to offer

But will that be enough?

I will not suffer from negativity

We are either something or nothing

So it can be hard to make friends you see?

Being you’re number one fan and critic

Being on your own or the “doing me” status

Listening and observing

Watching other people’s actions

Hoping that I don’t change

Due to the world around me

And if I do

who’s going to stop and remind me?

Will that be enough?

It’s in my blood to be a hard worker

To give more than what is asked for

I believe in karma whether it is good or bad

But I hope that more good appears

Because every time I get my hopes up

Every time I talk less, and listen with my ears

Every time I plan ahead, and speak without fear

The things out of my control come near

And although I try to stay clear and level headed

Will that be enough?

Simple situations turn into lessons and still

I have to learn how to control my emotions

I have to learn how to control feelings

I have to learn how to see past certain things

And focus in on my destination

If it’s finances, basketball related, or a social life

I end up a little more disappointed

But my academics have always been up to par

I sacrifice three things in order to succeed in one

But will that be enough? 

My grades don’t pay the bills, in fact I pay them

They say in the long run they represent importance

They are significant in how your future may begin

Whether you’re career is something you have passion in

Or whether you spend a couple years struggling

And even if all my profit can cover me,

Even if all my goals become successes

Even if I accomplish things you couldn’t imagine

Will that be enough?

Will I be thankful? Will I be happy?

Will I settle? Will I want more?

Will I question, “is that it?”

Will there be a compromise between

All that I want and all that I need

Will it be fulfilling?

Or should I be doing something else?

I guess we’ll see and find out.