Be Okay
All the words i swallowed down
All the tears i fought back
The pain i forced deep inside of me
Its crawling back up my throat
Seeping into my bones
Carving a chasm in my chest
Leaving an empty space where my heart once was
Filling me with rage
Manipulating my thoughts
Till I lose sight of all the good in this world
Till i give up on life
Breaking me down little by little
Making it hard to breath
Making my head spin
Making me drown
Till it feels like i’ll never be happy again
Till it feels like this is the end
Everything starts fading to black
The stars that used to shine so bright
Barely visible through the thick of night
Shadows moving up my walls
Reaching for me
Pulling me into a ghostlike existence
Till i forget what joy feels like
Till i remember everything i tried to forget
Nothing matters anymore
Me being here is pointless
Drained of energy
I can barely lift my head of my pillow
But somehow i know i’ll be okay
I have to believe i’ll be okay
I’ll run the words through my mind
Let them roll over my tongue till they sink in
I’ll be okay
I’ll be okay
I’ll be okay
And deep down i know that i will