To Be A Refugee

Will I ever find Refuge as an American Refugee?

I have found myself on the crux of what it means to black in America at the hands of oppressor.

 I am criminalized before conception, indoctrinated in a systematic white abduction.

From birth,  They kidnapped my culture stole from my land and then yet they still ask me to return yet again to a land from which they exploited everything they saw as good, hardy, true, and firm, and rich about Africa, Afrique

The land that my parents have called theirs for centuries of old. The white man’s religion is a construction to dominate the truly genetically dominant race. We are competing past natural selection but competition meant to survive in place where the oppressors don’t want black woman or man to ever thrive.  Eve was the first strong black woman she had to endure the pains and pay the price for our sins.  Why are we always paying the price for our sins? Are we inherently evil or this just a moral illusion?  For who is good and who is really conducting in the business of evil? If we want to talk about spirituality there are more Christian white males in KKK or mass massacres that play as puppet to one evil master. 

Did you know who first invented the idea of a university? Did you know that life and all creatures of humanity came to be in the West of the Nile, a country called Egypt who rose to great prominence, the status and nation state of Nefertiti? I know some of these facts make you uncomfortable but do know what it’s like to walk into a room full of blond hairs and get uncomfortable stares for being the only brunette there.  Stop trying to be us, tanning to get darker, injecting atrocious melanin into your skin that seems like  carrot juice you not destined to win, 

At the very least don’t pull or criticize our hair telling us its unkempt, giving us dirty looks, so unprofessional while you  turn around and imitate, cause you less than ingenuous you have always been a thief not knowing how to innovate, a plagiarist can’t give no credit, where it is due, looking at your internal revenue, you have no heart, you selfish itch, you are a bug, a flea, a tick that’s needing to be rid, it’s a superiority complex, Freudian would definitely reduce to the id cause what feels good is privilege and power and recognizing you have it and its not meant to be shared, meanwhile browns or blacks need not be spared.     

The term African-American is politically charged and deemed as correct. However

What’s wrong with just being an American, I don’t earn no respect. All Lives don’t matter if our fear is deeply engrained in those who are running away from the very same threat we have been taught, tomfooled to believe.  The construction of homeland security is false, mass media makes billions of corporate dollars to deceive, including the mass incarceration of black brothers and sisters at disproportionately higher rates, remaining stuck after or if they do graduate back into this masses of mass society without a job. without education, some life skills or classes, without a house, or opportunity to vote or integrate, you aren’t an American, you are negro who just doesn’t belong the easiest way to get that hatred back in place, is to keep shoving the bullets in your face, while the history book charge with lies fills your mouth with lead so you can’t speak about what’s being done to you cause by the time it’s done to you you’ll be done its true. 

Do you realize that the only true people who have ever belonged, the Natives were mass murdered with millions of rapes and human rights atrocities that fall under the categories of wrong? Some say that the Holocaust was just the greatest human rights abuse ever recorded, well ours was just never on film.  

The only people allowed to be considered American in a land that was never for the taking in the first place.  Why should I have to suffer, pay the price for your deficiency or incompetency? I don’t hold reverse racism cause I’ll never have the power, but to shower you with knowledge and going against the odds designed for me every hour I scream racist, and debate against open ignorance in a liberal arts classroom that deem racism doesn’t exist.  Maybe forever we shall remain in between in a land that never belonged in the beginning and somehow America remains on top and always winning we cannot continue to focus on abroad while ignoring our issues in our backyard.  Please don’t play white savior Africans never once needed to be saved yet you were persistent in imposing your white ideals to exploit my Africa, my parents Afrique they called home for all their lives.   But what have you given to Africa other than disease, a deeply rooted mental illness in quest to be white in distortion of skin bleaching, damaging organisms with nihilistic beliefs, you thieves have robbed and raped our melanin hoping that your children would be like them while at the same time knowing you may never be, so the only way was to have the black man to fear all that he is in his own strength, so that he didn’t  know the power that lies within which to me has been the greatest sin.   My president is black means nothing if he works for you.  He does not deserve the burden of apologizing for your ancestral actions until you can recognize that your argument is faulty, that the white race should always be superior, check yourself you are not on the same level if you realize that Africans were never interested in you or your inventions. We were comfortable in own world, you are and will never be comfortable in own world.