BEAUTIFUL OBESSION

How I wish I could bind my desire for having u, I try my very best to distance from u, eternal I look at u and appreciate the artist’s works, For every glance at u, leaves me in a freeze of how would it be like if it was, I close my eyes to defend myself from the smile either would I be trapped in a beautiful obsession, Sometimes I get excited but how forgetful I am, Later in me, I remember that am not of good character which can a please eternal With time,I start putting up vibrant atmosphere to catch your care Nevertheless it’s all in my mind but not of yours, Life became a little harder when I ran into u ,eternal I had to force change with my treatment of people in a favor for u, It is not strange that am emotionally bankrupt though I act with pride, I shy away from the light because my arrogant face seems not to fancy people, I tell jokes to everyone but deep inside I know it’s not that am meant to, I get timid when I touch my chest and my heart within is becoming more of stone, But then,there u come my beautiful obsession, And everything goes to reset with your presence, eternal My mind and heart can’t come up with an agreement of pursuing u, For the mind thinks of it’s self wellness than having u, And then the heart yearns into getting u,eternal I get muzzled when my heart races for u though they are few moments but hold them dearly, Thoughts click in, persuading me to go for u, But I ignore it as if it was not from me Shameful that am broken but I worry that I will break, Again and again, wow, there u come, my beautiful obsession. What can I say, my silence speaks a lot more than me, I know But I struggle to put competition,sadly it doesn’t impact anything” ohh. I can’t take in always” Trust me ,the world describes me as a cold nonchalant person though it’s true. I still stretch my line to create different dimension with u,eternal Most times I lie to myself that I will do better alone since at the very first, I wasn’t born a twin Then feelings get a chance and release a chaotic backlash to me, But I still defy the truth in my sight because I know what I am capable of, Weighing my ambitions ,I get blinded by those desires Then again,my beautiful obsession redeems me back, Seem I can’t let go of u, eternal U hold beauty that’s dazzling which leaves me with the answers to my questions, I tell myself ,u can’t last faking it whether I must decide to cut ties or confess it But then eternal,u are too precious to me that even my encrypted mind adores u in a disguise too, Life goes on without u but the moments just become more lonely as the brightest star, BY: ZEAH ZITHRI/BJF