Because I Cared For Him

Dear Eriq, 

You left me feeling used and broken

I was just a token

In a game that only you thought was fun

I just wanted run

And hide from all who saw

I fell and now I’m raw

All out in the open for everyone to see

They watch and sip tea

As I fall apart

You continued to break my heart

Tore my life apart

If I would’ve been a little smart

I wouldn’t have opened up my heart

These scars will not heal

What I thought you felt was not real

My tears won’t stop falling

I don’t hear you calling

Out my name

Not caring that I’m in pain

You took advantage of how I felt

Your warm hugs made me melt

I would have done anything you wanted

You used love and taunted

Me and I let you

Because I wanted you to feel for me too

An apology for treating me bad

Would’ve had prevented me from being sad

No, you decided to be mad

Cause I confronted your actions

This became a fatal attraction

A one sided thing

So now I sing

About the pain you continue to bring

I am writing this now

And I take this vow

Never to feel for you again

I pick up my pen

Here I go

Writing as the wind blows

And waiting for the blood to stop its flow

Goodbye For Now, 

 Monica Banda