Because I love you

At sixteen years old spitting the word 'love' out since I was six like it was my

word of the day every day for the last ten years.

The day I met you was a log thrown on a traintrack,

a finger stuck in a meat grinder,

a toe stubbed on a door.

Because I loved you I gave you everything I had.

Look through my phone

Here are my passwords

this is normal

it's okay because

I love you.

Because I loved you I isolated myself.

I wont talk to them anymore

please don't be mad at me

stop yelling

I love you.

Because I loved you I did what I could to make you happy.

You're right I shouldn't eat that

I won't wear those shorts anymore

I'm sorry I cut my hair

I love you.

Choking on my words and coughing up remorse because I loved you.

And because I love myself

I left you.

Four years later at twenty years old experiencing unconditional love

Knowing my self worth and loving someone who loves me too.