Because I Love You (Broken)

If we lay in the grass,

If we rest in silence's soft bed,

If I crept a small finger toward your hand,

If I ignored the fact that you were looking at the sky looking like you'd burst into frustrated tears, searching for answers,

and kissed you anyway; would you let me?

Because I Love You... breaking.

 

If you stopped screwing things up,

If you would just stay on the phone for a while longer on the day before exams,

If you let me take your wallet because you're treating me on every date,

If you don't mind finding your way home since "my homeboys just started a smoke sesh and they can't give you a ride,"

If you became my undying source; my glinting chalice of success I can drink from whenever I please;

Would you let me? I would let me, because I know I Love You... cracked.

 

If I make you lie to your parents to go back to the park,

If we lay in the grass,

If we rest in the sounds around us,

If I ripped your skirt,

If I get enraptured by anger,

because you screwed up everything again! You have no idea how lucky you are!

Yet you won't stop texting him! Saying 'hi' to her!

If I just knew why you never satisfied me!

If I punch you, 

then I kiss you,

then I grab you, and hold your neck so you look at me in the eyes when I violate you;

Would you let me?

Because I Love You... broken.

 

And so, I let him.

I let him until my frustrated tears landed on my brown-haired, soft-handed answer.

I didn't need to stare at the sky, hoping for a savior.

Because I know,

If we lay in the grass,

my small fingers will crawl to the warmth of his hand.

If we rest in silence's soft bed, comfortable with just each other,

If he notices my eyes wandering on the details of his face, looking like I'd burst into tears, 

in loving, unheard tears,

and kissed me,

I would let him, because this is true.

Because this is real.

Because I Love You.

This poem is about: 
Me

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