Because I "Loved" You

When you say you love me I giggle and push you away. When you try to kiss me I joke around and tickle you. When you try to seduce me I make up lies that I have to go because this..this isn't us. This isn't what I wanted. If you loved me, I would not be your second choice for the 5th time. You wouldn't continue to cheat and lie knowing each time I would come back. You would respect who I am and know my worth. You would not use me for sex once a week, and the next day make plans with her. If you loved me you wouldn't make me cry after you forced me to have sex and leave right after not even asking if I was okay. This isn't us. This is not the guy I fell in love with 4 years ago.. And people will wonder why..why did I stay ? Why did I continue to always be there for you? Hearing "You're stupid" over the years, I did it because well, well #BecauseILoveYou