Because Of Me
I'm broken up here
she pointed to her temple
because I'm broken down here
She laid her hand on her left breast
I felt my mouth sag into a frown
and interrupted my feelings by saying
your heart isn't there and started to place my hand on my chest feeling for a beat
I found my heart and it was racing. Immediately my mind pictured runners lined up at the start line
and running off. And the beat of their feet hitting the pavement matching my heart.
Her words echoed in my head
She was broken. Because of me.
Because of me she was broken
my words
my actions
my emotions
caused her to be broken
it didn't matter to me anything else that she has spoken about that made her broken before or after me.
All that concerned me was that at one point she became broken because of me.
My name will not be woven into her heart by love but scarred into her mind by pain.
She was cautious, paranoid, anxious, and afraid to love because of me.
Is she afraid to love me?
I let my hand drop to my side again as I walked beside her.
I looked up and she was smiling.
"Why the smile?" I asked. "Because of you" she replied.