Because of you I'm scared for life
Because of you I'm scarred for life
Because of you I'm afraid to trust my best friends...
No, because of you I'm terrified at the thought of even thinking that someone would have my back and support me
Because of you, I'm lost
Because of you I second guess everything
Because of you I cry for no reason at all
Because of you I'm just an empty shell trying to fill the void with whatever I can
Because of you I resent everyone especially the man who you used to call your husband, the man who I call my father
Because of you I can't accept anything without thinking that it's all just a lie
Because of you I can't trust anyone, that's what you taught me
You also taught me that I will never be what anyone says I am or what they want me to be
Because of you I can't look in the mirror and say that I like what I see no matter how much I want to
Because of you if someone hits me I feel that I deserve that and so much more
Because of you.... I'm not who I used to be
Because of you I will never be the happy, fun loving girl I used to be
Because of you I'm a ticking time bomb
Because of you I've beuilt up walls that no one can breach and if I do let someone in and they see the truth, they leave
Because of you I don't know what to do
Because of you I'm afraid to live
Because of you I'm afraid to love
Because of you have so many conflicting emotions and thoughts in the sea of my brain that I'm drowning
Because of you I don't know if what you did was actually wrong anymore
Were you right to hit me for no reason? Were you right to starve me? Were you right to hate me for only God knows why?
Maybe so, I'll never know. Maybe I deserve everything you did to me
Maybe I'm exactly the failure you said that I would be....
Everything I feel, fear, second guess, hate in myself
Because of you I'm crying while writing this
And it's all because of you
All beacuse of you, I'm a broken little girl in the corner that no one knows what to do with
Because of you I'm broken beyond repair and too afraid to let peoplr help me to heal, if I ever can be healed
Because of you I'm nothing.....
Nothing but an empty shell with a smile and a beautiful past turned dark....
All because of you