Because You Didn´t Love me

You didn't love me...

You loved the idea of controlling and abusing me,

spiritually, mentally and physically

You thought I was head over heels for you,

but you really never knew.

Your lies just wrapped me up like a lullaby,

You let me close my eyes and fall into your deep pond of shallow lies

Lies that sounded a little like this,

¨You´re the only one I can see myself with,

Just give me one more chance, because I love you

I´ll do whatever I have to.¨

I wasn't dumb enough to feed into these lies,

I was just hypnotized, every time I looked into your eyes...

Your. Beautiful. Eyes.

But then I realized, you manipulated me,

Made me feel like you and I could possibly be.

In reality I gave you all of me, yet only received half of you

Could you have proven to be that this ¨relationship¨ was true?

You didn't love me,

But before this once called ¨Love Letter¨ gets out of hand

I want to clear something up...

We.Were.Just.Friends.

I can do me and you can do you and if you asked me about my life I´d probably never tell you

One reason is because you´ve got me running, not in circles,

But in zigzags because I'm dodging the bullets that you're shooting right at me.

I´m pretending that I´m not shot, but I´m bleeding and everyone sees it

Because you didn't love me...

Thanks a lot for the pain you've caused

I´m falling into agony can you catch me?

Just because I let you go,it doesn't mean I wanted to

It doesn't matter how this poem began,

You probably see now...my regret and pain all

Because.I. Loved.You.