#BecauseILoveYou

I forgave you each time

That you walked out of my life

And left me behind

I never caused you to do so

You just always found another

And made them your first choice, your main priority

While I was just “the other”

#BecauseILoveYou

I dealt with so much hate

From other girls who wanted you

To take them on a date

I put up with harassment

Rude comments, actions, and glares

All because I thought I could

Trade them for your cares

#BecauseILoveYou

I looked dumb on many occasions

I made decisions solely based on

Your charming use of persuasion

I turned down guys who loved me

Because I thought you loved me too

I made so many foolish decisions

#BecauseILoveYou

 

#BecauseILoveYou

For the longest, I denied

The neglect you gave to me, in exchange

For the efforts I was willing to provide

I made plans for us

And attended at least half of them alone

And through all this, I still cared for you

Despite the lack of attention you had shown

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I visited and tried to make you happy

I gave you gifts, time, and affection

And was made to only feel crappy

I tried to be perfect

Caring, sexy, and smart

But nothing seemed to keep you

From breaking my heart

#BecauseILoveYou

I swallowed my pride

I forgot to take care of myself

My identity had died

I drove myself insane

Looking for successful ways to pursue

And win over your heart

#BecauseILoveYou

 

#BecauseILoveYou

Your words caused me to cave

Every time you apologized

I undoubtedly forgave

Despite your actions

Your words are what fooled me

When you claimed that you did care

And were willing to pursue me

#BecauseILoveYou

I held tightly onto hope

That we would end up together

And so, I let you grope

My body and mind

My heart and my sanity

But in the end, my dear friend

You showcased your inhumanity.

 

#BecauseILoveYou

I decided to take a break

And go along with the distance

You never failed to recreate

I wanted to breathe again

To view you from a different angle

So I decided to not do anything

And let the situation, itself, untangle

#BecauseILoveYou

I kept you on my mind

But decided not to act on

My feelings this time

I wanted to find out

What would happen to us

If I no longer made efforts

And no longer pushed us to discuss

#BecauseILoveYou

I began to learn what makes

A healthy relationship

Full of great times and bad mistakes

Where both people make efforts

To show that they care

Allowing each other to grow independently

While still being there

#BecauseILoveYou

I pictured how it would be

If you were to have a true

Relationship with me

We’d account for the feelings

That both of us hold

And love unconditionally

Until we grow old

#BecauseILoveYou

I took time to renew

I eventually found myself again

My sense of self-worth grew

I learned what I wanted

And obtained a new view

That no longer included “us”

#BecauseILoveYou

 

#BecauseILoveYou

I must let you go

Our “relationship” doesn’t work

This is a fact we both know

And although this will initially

Hurt and cause much grief

I promise it won’t last forever

And in the end, will cause relief

#BecauseILoveYou

I must be honest and real

Our relationship is problematic

And it’s something we should no longer conceal

We tried to keep it going

Out of fear of being alone

But I’d rather be lonely than with

Someone whose love isn’t shone

#BecauseILoveYou

I’m walking away

From my resentment and anger

That would persist if I were to stay

I only wish you the best

And hope that you find someone, too.

I’m saying goodbye.

#BecauseILoveYou