Becoming

been going through the same cycle for years

i always wanted to change gears 

always thought change is inevitable 

i never had time for the girl I see in the mirror 

I never admired her

it took me years to realize my worth and now I know nothing can shake me

maybe it's a good thing that I lost myself 

maybe it's a good thing I never turned back and retraced my steps

Maybe it's a good thing I learnt to accept my flaws 

and stopped looking for validation in boys who don't even know their worth 

I'm glad I finally entered the phase of knowing myself 

and reinventing me 

so don't come to me and tell me I changed 

do not come to me and tell me you miss the old me 

when you left her bleeding 

and drowning in her sorrows 

Thank you for not saving me 

now I know nobody can help me except me 

I'm honored that I fell in the hands if Christ our King 

and I am finally royal again