Befuddled by Hormones

Turn your eyes from me I don’t need your pity I’m not some helpless puppy Your generosity is anything but kind Leading me astray; playing tricks on my mind I’m happy we are growing closer But you don’t treat me as an equal I was friend-zoned from the start These pains won’t leave my heart Whether we are together or apart I prithee, be mean Strike me with your fists till I’m seeing birds Cut me down with harsh brutal words So my heart can accept what my mind has known That between you and I exists a wall of stone I can’t cry; can’t complain Or you’ll come running back If you pet me one more time, I’ll either explode or have a heart attack I know I may act tough Yet as a maiden and human I am weak We all have our kryptonite But what can I do when mine is always in sight? You embarrass me, leaving me speechless and pouting like a child Because of you I am a rabid primate frothing in the wild I am competitive by nature And, you, sir, bring out my best and worst I should best you once and for all, lest I ever be curst I fear I may be a madman Suffering as though dehydrated from such delusions I should know better than to fall prey to your pretty, petty, cliché illusions And yet I am so tempted Your color Your tactics Your expressions I’ve seen them all before Men are a dime a dozen And yet I fall for more What can I do but suppress these feelings? Will they ever go away? Should I go and confess these feelings? The elastic stretches with each passing day. The tension will soon kill me I must act now, without fear of consequence You already know- I’m not a good liar So why hold back? I’ll pull you into the fire It may not be so, but if I believe I’m the best You’ll feed off my energy; be convinced- and so will the rest I am no longer confused There’s no denying what I want You keep me amused with your alluring taunt