Being

You looked me in the eyes

Your gaze was so deep, I felt it in the pit of my stomach.

I tried so hard to absorb it all,

The way your eyelashes curved, and how those small

Green circles pried my heart open.

You said you'd do anything to make me feel better because I was sick that day.

Somehow, I felt my heart split in two

Because maybe I was sick because I knew.

That was the moment I knew it wasn't best friends anymore

Because damn, if it wasn't love

It was- I still love the way your hair smells when you haven't washed it in a week.

It was- I'm sure I knew you back when we were only stars and dust.

It was- how kissing you felt more natural than eating ever has.

That moment was when I came crashing into the harsh reality

that your face would be tattooed on my skull until the end of existence.

I never thought I'd feel relaxed being covered in only my skin.

I've always had this thing in my head where I hoped people would look at my clothes,

but not at me,

but now I dare them.

I am what I am.

You said we're all just monkeys without hair so why does it matter?

It doesn't.

Who knew?

Who knew this boy I saw and somehow knew I needed

Would be the vitamin

I've been deficient in?

Who knew his touch was the cure to stomach aches?

Who knew his voice was my nepenthe?

Nobody knows how things are gonna be until that be is being.