Being Alone

Why do we hate being alone?

Why do we all need someone else?

I don't want to need anybody else.

I want to focus on myself and figure out who I am without you.

Without anyone.

But how can I?

I don't want to disappoint anyone.

So am I just living the life they want for me?

How can I ever discover who I am if I'm protecting everyones' feelings.

Is there a way to break free without being completely alone?

I know it's important to find myself and I need to do it alone.

I hate being alone.

It's terrifying.

How can I know that I don't want to be alone if I don't know who I want to be?

I want to be with you.

But I can't.

You can't be with someone who is still figuring themselves out.

I can't handle my feelings.

I act out to prove to myself that I don't need one person to depend on.

That I won't let myself become reliant on one person.

To need only one person is a weakness.

But I want to be wanted by you.

So then am I defining myself by what you think?

If I want to be someone you want?