Being Dealt a Bad Had

Being dealt a bad hand "I sit here and question myself,"why me?!".... out of all people ,it had to happen to me.... feeling disgusted,down right nasty..... i was such a fool to let him ever touch me.... walking into a clinic to get tested and handed a damn perscription..... doing a walk of shame cause it feels like people making fun of me everybody staring at me saying ,"there go that girl with the STD ....not realizing my mind is taking the best of me..... I call my partner to let him know what he had given me.. That nigga asked me how did i get such a thing and he hope i didnt give it to him. Is this the same man that said he loved me, trusted me, Never would hurt me that i could trust him,aint no need for no condom cause all he wanna do is feel me.... so i see how the tables have turned yeah,it was ok when .he had access to panties just a week ago.... Now he in the bed with some other hoe..... Being so naive i contracted an STD which cause me to lose my baby yeah i was pregnant Being that i didnt get treated sooner Death was the result of of my unborn I didnt even know.....do you how that makes me feel all i can hear in my head is when mama told me "you better keep your panties up and your skirt tail down" wish i wouldve listen to mama Now im sitting here wit my shoudve,wouldve ,couldves,ifs and buts.......Being dealt a bad hand so i thought,i just didnt play my cards right....i cheated myself .. Had i have listened i wouldve thought smarter.... If you know like me ladies youre protect ya self more so respect yourself!!!! ... yours truly Ashley Poetic A'renee Mckinney!