Being Me

you don't know how hard it is.
to not have anybody to call on. a soft place to fall on.
you don't know how hard it is.
to be at rock bottom...
where there's no hope, and all you see is darkness...
you don't know how hard it is.
to smile with a broken heart and. 
you don't know how hard it is. to live with all the lies, and laugh when all you wanna do is cry.
to be all alone, 
with nobody but you to confide in, nowhere where you can call home.
you don't know how hard it is. 
just to stand when you're breaking down. 
to have not one caring person when you look around.
you don't know how hard it is.
to be used, until you have nothing left.
to believe in life, when all you're surrounded with is death.
you don't know how hard it is.
to be abused until you can no longer feel.
to not have love and anybody who's real.
to maintain through the pain.
the sorrow, tribulations, trial and heart break.
to go through everyday, and not live down your mistakes.
you don't know how it is.
to feel like no matter what you accomplish, that it will never make things right.
to cry until you have nomore tears left to cry, 
to stay up all night.
with regrets on your mind.
you don't know how it feels.
to have nobody to listen, with no judgement, no one to understand.
to be disadvantaged and never get the upper hand.
to have nobody there to give back what you've given.
to never feel worthy enough to be forgiven.
You don't know how hard it is being me