Better

Better I want to do better I have to do better But there are things I have to do Things I’m not willing to do Things I would only do for you Maybe if you were still here I would try and steer clear And try not to overhear The things that are said about me But… You're not So I still hear what they say And I see what they try to do To make me stay away From my goals and dreams If only they could hear me scream I try to keep it in touch But it just sits inside of me Trying to force its way free Wouldn’t you be? They see me smile But all I see is the deep denial So maybe if I do better Just maybe… just maybe They would stop But its okay cause ill see you again Well be like old friends And then ill be all better So why try now When I could try later Buts that’s just what they went And I don’t want that again But why should I care what they think of me Well don’t you see? There what I want to be Is it true after all they could do You still want to be like that But hey wouldn’t you want to fit it After all the disrespecting to be let in How would you feel? Yeah you up there How would you feel? To have everyone stare at you Because you’re a bit different So I want to do better I have to do better But how can I do that When there’s no one to help me When I’ve depended on you To get me through And you’ve already left me And all they could do is stare at me And talk about me behind my back So I guess I could do it all on my own I have to do it all on my own Cause you left me all alone