better.

the pain i feel is intense 

like a burning fire inside of my chest

i can't seem to trust

i'd rather cry

hidden behind a smile 

a happy girl is disguise 

my heart gets empty

how can i still feel this way?

even when i have Jesus

an enemy attacking a child of the one almighty 

and letting him win with agony

my brain leaks out 

as i try to recollect my thoughts 

the sound of Him fills my box 

the one i hide in 

where i feel lost.

finally leaving these things at the cross,

as one foot leads the other follows,

i'm now in a pool

my body has sunk, 

fully engulfed,

not to be dramatic but i felt it

i saw it

the beauty of a sunny day 

my old life has sunk away 

pulled out with a smile on my face 

i thank God for His amazing Grace.

- j.p.