Between Love and Leviticus

There is a battle inside me Between my (guilty) conscience And my nature Between logic and feeling Between head and heart Between Scripture and hormones Between Leviticus and love… How is it that I live in a world and Am part of a religion That forsakes me for who I am? That condemns me for thoughts and feelings I have no control over? And they say It’s fiiiiine just as long as you don’t act on it But that doesn’t work Because the thoughts The feelings The dreams Are still there And how do you LIVE with yourself If you feel guilty for the thoughts that enter your head daily? And how can you forgive yourself Or ask forgiveness For something you know you can’t stop doing? But you’re completely aware of your sin So then they call it “Deliberate sin” And when you announce it By throwing parades and wearing certain clothes You are “living in open sin” So what can you do? How can you win? How can you be happy? Why does who you sleep with Need to be a moral issue? Whose business is it? They say It’s God’s. That you’re going to Hell for eternity And that Hell Consists of lakes of fire And such dry heat That you will writhe in pain And BEG for just a tip of water You will experience intense and everlasting thirst and hunger No mercy will be shown to you And what IF By some crazy off chance “They” are right And this is where you end up For nothing more Than following instincts embedded in you?