This Is Beyond Me

Let me tell you, this is beyond me

As in this is ridiculous

As in I am lost for words

I can’t believe this treatment I am receiving

Yet all alone 

Stuck & Grieving 

Struggling to get to the ends meet the monster catches up 

But this is beyond me

I tend to question myself over and over

Why is he back ? did he ever leave ?

I can not run anymore

 I have to stand on my one two feet

 Don’t run face it 

Then when I look 

I just see

My own face & suddenly

I just can’t take it…

Stuck on the edge of the cliff wondering if i should end it all 

The monster is looking into my soul, our soul , no its soul

I can’t believe my eyes all of this comes as a surprise 

She or he is watching me struggling but IT is not moving a muscle 

Suddenly...

I rise , I look up at the sun just for a glimpse

As I find myself standing and not in self doubt

Im happy now a weight is lifted the monster is gone and my mood has shifted

Make a wise choice i don’t know at this moment if i did

Well i am just a kid.