the big c

i have childern i love them so much ill do anything for them give them my life anything but now my body is tainted tainted with disese that damn cancer its taking my life draining me completly im sick of all the chemo my hair once bright and full is now on the pillow when i get out the hosptial bed needles poking me everywhich way and... it hurts hurts so much all the vomiting the pain the pain of seeing my familys face pitying me wishing that they can take this sickness aways to...help \but they cant the best they can do is pay the bills and stand there at my bed side saying how much they love me ....its uncurable the doctor said but ... i dont want this i want to live.... to see my babies grow and learn about life i want to renew my vowles to visit miami for vaction but no im bed redden i have to say here and die ...doctors orders.....