Big Fish, Shallow water

Why can’t I just be ok?

Why was I cursed with ability to feel too deeply?

When I could just be oblivious.

Why must I hurt too deeply?

When others are just fine.

How I wish to be shallow,

To simply not care,

Because no one cares.

After much practice – I have forgotten to feel.

Blissfully numb and vacant

Empty.

My heart no longer hurts.

And Confusion no longer torments my mind.

Is this what it is to be shallow?

If that may be the case,

I am too big of fish to be in shallow water.

I am lost.