In The Big World
Hands are cold
Body is shaking
All the anxiety
Caused from the stress
It brought depression
It brought darkness
And the tears wouldn't stop
They fell against the pillow
No one could hear
Isolation
In the big world with small people
Everyone is sad in their own way
Lost as they walk in the dark
Depending on the wrong things
People and objects
Money and drugs
Addiction
They say "I'm okay"
But deep inside
The darkness is blocking the sun
Seeing online what people are saying
"Hoe"
"Slut"
"Ugly"
Feelings take emotional beatings
At home the body takes physical beatings
Sitting on the bed looking around
In a house that is not really a home
Staring at the pills
Thinking "It will all be over"
But she doesn't want to die
She wants
The hands that are cold to go away
The shaking body to disappear
The anixiety to calm down
The stress to subside
Because its what brought
Depression
Darkness
Tears would dry up
From the sun
The warmth will blanket her body
Shield her from the darkness
It will shine into the house that isn't a home
For once she will sit there alone
Bruises, scars, and cuts healing
Pills flushed down the toilet
Her reflection staring back at her
Saying "I'm okay"