coldness and depression

my life is a never-ending lessonto infinity and beyondmy mind is going going gone I can't remember certain thingscertain times certain dreams even though I can still tell timelife's a blurrocking back and forthresembling grandfather clock for sure I can't take this anymorethis attitude this pain galore I've been through it before I'm overreactingthis is just creationI'm writing this poemin hopes of stimulation bitternesscold and aloneholding my cell phonewaiting to be dethroned