Bitter Betrayal

You know that feeling

That feeling you have in your chest

When you blindly trust someone

Because they said all the right words

In all the right times

Because they assured you and reassured you when you needed it most

Because their kindness and sweetness was something you longed for

Their presence left a feeling of warmth

A feeling of wholeness

That feeling fills the void inside of you

And so you rely on the source

You rely on the person who gives you that

But what happens when you see something you can’t unsee

When you slowly unravel the truth

You look at them and you don’t know who they really are anymore

That warm feeling in your chest

grows cold

That wholeness inside of you

Breaks up into pieces

And you’re left behind

Crippled on the cold cold floor

Picking up the pieces on your own

And they continue to fill you with that false sense of security 

And you’re left wondering

Whether you should trust again or not

It’s like twisting that thorn deep into yo until you bleed from the inside out

Your chest doesn’t just grow cold

It grows unfeeling 

Unfeeling to others

Unfeeling to their sincerity

Numb to everyone and everything

After all, that’s what your body is best at:

Self-protection