Blood and Tears

I lie in bed awake at night Empty inside Wanting to grab onto something But not knowing what Lonely and hurt Tears of joy one morning But sadness creeps Back into your blood at night So many losses for one heart to take Trying to go through the day Busy and surrounded by friends Having fun and being young But every once and a while you’ll feel it Your delicate heart breaking all over again Smile through your face While your soul screams from inside Trying desperately to talk But what’s to say when deaf ears Are listening There have been moments when your Presence has touched my soul I feel you in the breeze Re-live your joys in the songs of birds And remember your skin in the sun’s soft warmth Pulled apart over my lost love I can’t help remembering the many joys And instantly feeling sorrow for not having the ability To live more experiences with you Your knowledge will forever impact my decisions. Nevertheless I still have a need to talk Who’s to call when I’m up? Thinking about you and being helpless Over my breaking heart I try to silently tell others With hopes they ask me what’s the matter But instead, they believe my façade That’s not what I need I’m still hurt and lonely Crying blood and bleeding tears The gentle touch of a hand I feel like I’m under a glass cage The occasional friendly hug But I want intent Meaning and sincerity I feel so lost and can’t even find comfort Nowhere to go, nowhere to turn Everyone’s watching with cold eyes But the one is different He will care because he’s my missing part In a time so dark I need you I need your touch, your care So many loses, I can’t lose myself again I can’t do this alone… I need you We have to find each other When will I find the one? The one who warms my heart And calms my mind I need you More than ever I cry for you I’d bleed for your I miss you