Blowing it All

I blow it all
and yet you took me back

I gave up on us
you were going to college
I was still in high school
but you never gave up on us as friends

my mind told you were like a brother
but heart told me different
you said at one time you'd do anything for me
I pushed it aside

your heart so pure
your mind so loving
I'm so confused
I hurt you I thought
but you did not move
like an old oak tree in a storm
with its roots so deep

you believe in yourself
you believe in me

why dont you give up on me
I'm so ordinary
so plian
a geek
a book worm

that never mattered once to you
you are my strength
I say I blow it all
but you say I made it better