Bottled Up

Here I am again, a new year, a new begining

However, in order to move on, I need to look into my past and let out these bottled up emotions

Love, what is it? I always wondered this. 

Is it a kiss? Is it a hug? What is it other than a feeling?

The only 'Love" i've felt is my parents, but when they say they give up on you?

The love is gone. It perished, lost forever. 

Those words can never be taken back, they're forever encased in my heart, my soul.

"Even time I see you face, I want to puke" those words are burned into my mind. 

So what is love? it doesn't exisit anymore. 

At least not fo me, Instead fear exists in it's place

Fear, fear is something that everyone has. 

My fear, I have several.

Being forgotten and left behind, lastly disapointing others

Sadly the last one I tend to do a lot

after all I am failure in their eyes

That's all I can see now, a failure 

then the world is cruel, so am I ready for this next step?

Am I ready for change?

that is one thing I'd like to know