To the Boy that I Love

To the boy that I love You led me to an ethereal paradise Slowly But surely Your smug face Endearing smirk Your voice absorbing me into a million seas Making me forget everything around me Your lips on mine Locked Latched I crave the taste of you and your presence I fell in love with you And the things that you do Slowly But surely I knew I was in trouble when you were constantly the only thing on my mind, the only thing I had the energy to think about, I poured myself not only into you, but out to you I trusted you You threw away every I love you Every I miss you Every I care about you None of it means anything now But if there’s one thing that I do trust It’s that you never meant to hurt me You tell me that nothing happened You were bored That I was the only one on your mind Every part of me wants to believe you But I can’t seem to I can’t seem to wrap my mind around the fact that a teenage boy Would go to the home of a girl Who has had feelings for him similar to that of his supposed girlfriend And not do so much as touch her It doesn’t make sense I can’t seem to understand I want to believe you, trust me I do But this pattern is one that is much too frequent I don’t want anything to do with you, yet I’m lost without you To the boy that I love I am worth too much I am beautiful, intelligent, and I deserve to be happy You always made me remember those things about myself You once made me feel like I was the only girl in the world But it seems that now The more time I spend with you The more I forget who I am The more I lose myself To the boy that I love I was happy before I met you I will be happy without you