To The Boy I Once Knew

It was your eyes

It was your face

It was how your face and eyes contorted

In such a way that conveyed compassion

But I was wrong

I read it but saw only what I wanted to see

I saw what I needed

I saw what I wanted

To have your face flush because of me

Then I craved it

But I didn’t think that it would lead to anything that would made me this sad

I didn’t think about what it would mean to kiss you

I didn’t think about what it would mean to hold you

I always forgot about the other girl you’d smile about

She always meant more

Which is why I shouldn’t have stayed when you chose her

I shouldn’t have loved you way that I did

I shouldn’t have thought of you in the way that I did

But I couldn’t forget how those

Tiny puddles of blue

God, how they would bring me comfort even though it brought more pain

It hurt to see you with her

It hurt to hear you talk about her

It broke me when you told me about

How you loved her

That was why I had to say goodbye

From,

The Girl You Once Knew