Boys

Boys, 

They can woo you, 

make you fall, 

make you think that you're their one and only, 

So why have I never been able to be with one?

Why does my fear of letting someone in take over the feelings I have?

Why do I shut down?

Shut them out?

Why do I do this to myself, over and over again?

Why do I not give myself a chance to be happy?

Because, 

Because I don't want to give somebody the power to hurt me

I want that power to remain in my own hands, 

If I hurt myself before they have a chance to

I'm not mad at them, 

Nobody knows about the pain, 

It's not all over school, 

I shut down, because it's my buissness, not yours