Brain dead

I'm dizzy 

I'm drained 

My brain is dead 

I never followed my heart 

I followed my what I felt in my gut 

I left my brain there to rot in the cold pavement 

The blood stains of my blood dripping every time I come closer to you 

My heart is is my hands while I wait patiently for you 

My heart is fragile please don't break it 

My brain is dead I can't listen to it 

But how can I still want you at midnight in cold sheets that still have your smell on them 

I don't understand how rotten everything can be 

I shouldn't want you 

I shouldn't need you like oxygen in my lungs 

I shouldn't I don't want to 

But in all honesty I do 

Cause I can't stop thinking about you in every twist and turn it's because of one stupid human being that with actions destroyed me 

How stupid can love be 

I'm dizzy 

I'm drained 

My brain is dead 

I never used it 

My heart hurts 

I never knew how to tame it 

Or the value of it 

the cold pavement 

I wish I could lay in it and have no problems 

But you stay with me like drunk tattoo some get just for the hell of it 

I love with regret lord knows I shouldn't