Breaking Even

Imagine Not you and me No happy endings Just a knife Pure and simple Shiny and new Polished to perfection Driven into my arm with surgeon-like precision All this just to see the bright red liquid that makes us alive Pure and simple Shatter glass Scatter me Shadows are my soul I dared the world to break my bounds and fragment my fragile bones The world didn’t listen Put yourself in the shoes of a stranger An outcast A nobody The difference between me and them is that they don’t get called a bitch everyday Fat Forest girl My past doesn’t define me My strength is an illusion My calm hides a storm Dreams What are they Honestly They’re just dares that we thought up Thought up Thinking Danger Warnings Blood stained battlefields piled with corpses because one man thought it was right One finger press from nuclear war One chance to change the world Whether it’s for good or bad We do it anyways Is that what makes us different? Honestly Is that what makes humans human? It’s pathetic Sickens me The dream is fading now I’m staring at a door Whatever happened to a passion I could live for What became of the flame that made me feel more Vanish Fire and brimstone Clouds Scattered across the sky Dancing through my mind Silence Something we all crave but few can get Pure Simple Silence Perfection I would kill to have that The few sacred moments of free fall before you have to react The best part of the dream before it becomes a nightmare Running barefoot through the woods before you have to go home Perfection Crave it Hunger for it Dream for it Hope for it Perfection Normality To actually be accepted for who we are and not for what we wear For what we believe in But we still have the knife The blade pressed deeply into my skin so I don’t feel it hurting me Pain is only weakness leaving the body Imagine Not me and you But a world without weakness Where dreams are reality and not just a fantasy that you crave Dreams will never be enough They will only distract us for a little Then we always have to wake up Waking up is the hardest Run Faster and faster A melody created by the forest Until we arrive Dead Man's Gulch Dislocated my shoulder Scratched up my arm So why did I still dream when I already know that that not going to happen Stopped chasing them Once upon a time We all want a story that starts like this Here’s mine Once upon a time I was braver Stronger Carefree Once upon a time I was a survivor Fighter Dreamer We all have our futures we planned out Hoping we’re in the other persons You left me for the life I was meant to live The athlete Musician Fighter Crying from the catwalks when I’d rather hang myself on the metal bars I made a future once So did you I wasn’t in it My dreams were So maybe we’ll catch up later I’ll still be a nobody The forest girl from California The people would rather see dead then alive Maybe we could have seen past the darkness But all we have is darkness They threatened to drug me The blade is back Scars everywhere Faded now Only the emotional ones remain The memories from a person I used to be Once upon a time We all want our story to start like that A fairy tale plot My very own happy ending So what will you say when I’ve wasted away At the end of time and the end of space Epic rap battles of history during math class Skipping third to go hit the thing with the thing Then tune some more To play the cymbals as loud as I can This is where I belong I sold my soul to the devil in order to be given a gift I never got a gift I got a curse I don’t even know what it is Transformation Cleaning station Coraline is a claymation Cross species genetics He always called me Little Bird I never knew why I was only five Little bird They said I was a wolf Trapped in the body of a kestrel Black as night Dark as day You came with the roses I was free once Wild Free Spirited Then came high school I learned that high school is code for let me suck your soul out of your nostrils But I’m a nobody An outcast A loser A dreamer A fighter Eye level Hands steady Narrowed A new perspective Breath in Breath out Breath in Breath out Aim Five Four Three Two One The final day on planet earth Man vs animal They have learned how to fight us Our strengths and weaknesses There is no more blood left Just the empty shell of a girl For forgetting somebody you love is like remembering someone you’ve never met Impossible It hurts all over Especially on the inside