Breaking myself (I get back up)

I look at you and you look at me
Wondering how things will be
In the future I do the same,
Wondering why i'm called this name
You say it to make me learn
And that name, never learned
I doubt myself and I even doubt you
I shut the world out, and I disrespect you
Last year, I was gave up on
Without her, she misses her son
I miss my him too
I'm here for a reason, but it's hard to believe
I break myself wanting to leave
Leave this place
Leave this mess
I feel guilty when I put on a nice smile
I feel like the world is laughing at me
When everyone makes mistakes, I feel like i'm the one who can't learn
So please, never give up on me and I promise you...I'll learn