Breaking point

I'm really breaking

I thought I was stronger than I used to be 

but all this stuff that keeps happening 

makes me forget that I ever went to therapy

I went to learn how to keep myself out of depression

but it seems like everyday that goes by I see myself slipping back

I'm trying so hard but its not working

I where a smile but inside im falling apart

I've reached the point now where I can't do it anymore

I'm trying to brush it off 

I'm trying to get these little voices out of my head

I'm just trying

it seems though that the harder I try the more I fail

The constant pain that is being brought upon me 

makes me question everything more than I already do

I just don't know how much longer I can be strong

everyone has their breaking point 

but I've reached it, bounced back, then reached it again

I believe the next time I reach it will be the last because I'm still recovering from the last time

I just hope and pray that God gives me the strength to not reach my last breaking point because I don't know what will happen if I reach it.