Breathe

breathe.

in...out...

in...out...

the calm rhythm of my day

undistrubed.

trigger.

sharply inhale. 

remember. 

"no..."

push it aside...

"focus."

force yourself to breathe

steady.

in...out...

in...out...

remember. 

inhale a big breath, 

wide, empty,

and nonchalant.

roll your eyes. 

"that's done now...

i'm over it."

suppress the thought

and move on.

exhale slowly. 

NO.

Stop. 

Take that thought captive

to CHRIST.

fear.

stop breathing.

pause...hesitate...

"i know You understand my thoughts, 

but if i surrender this to You,

You won't remove it from my mind.

You'll bring it out front

and make me face it,

head on."

lack of oxygen, 

breathe quickly. 

breathe unsteadily. 

remember. 

wince.

pain.

flee!

STOP.

return.

inhale shakily, 

exhale slowly. 

force yourself to look in His eyes. 

Penetration. 

Remember...surrender. 

Brace yourself. 

Take a seat. 

Breathe deeply. 

Exhale long. 

Think.

Surrender.

Freedom will come.